Here I ponder the act of writing as a gift to myself.
ColetteKay.com is a project of vulnerability, an act of unconditional love for writing and expression paired with the belief that we cannot connect to each other without speaking truth, though it can also be argued that every person’s truth is different (though no less real to the individual, and we must respect that in each other).
Begun in 2014 as a travel blog, this site served as my “diary of destinations” for two years while I traveled and began a business. This led to contributing travel features to other publications, editing roles, many thoughtful comments from readers I never met and my travel photography displayed at the Ecological Society of America conference. For this I had been proud, but old points of pride turn obsolete when life’s purpose changes.
Now nearly five years into small business ownership—the starting point to which does not feel so long ago but how do we measure time?—I find myself on a new path reclaiming inner and inherent creativity, recapturing what has been hidden away for several years in favor of building a career. Sustaining income will always be a necessary evil, but as we age our purpose shifts; this is where I am now.
Consider that a commonly shared sadness among humans is the retrospective realization of what we did not do with our time, and as I specifically reflect upon: the time spent not being what and who we are, and the failure to create when creation and connection are, in many senses, all we have. I share a favorite quote that perhaps you’ve heard before:
“The most regretful people on earth are those who felt the call to creative work, who felt their own creative power restive and uprising, and gave to it neither power nor time.” – Mary Oliver
I have learned through experience and occasional losses, which I imagine will be revealed in pieces as I can muster it out of me, that we have limited time. I am using it now.
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